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Friday, July 15, 2011
I'm up at this hour. It not like its the first time. I can't remember when was the first time I slept already. It hurts. All I ever wanted was to make you happy. But you don't seem to give me that opportunity. Those tiny moments and memories are all I am capable of because that's the only chances I have. Or more like those were the only chances I had. Those things I told you that we would do together, which you said alright to, I guess in you head you picture doing it with someone else. Not me. I sent you those texts while you were gone. Those few days you went to malaysia. I thought about you only. And right know I kinda guess I was just the smallest fragments of your thoughts while you were there. I guess you were thinking about others more. I really am a living hindrance. An anchor. Weighing you down. Making you unable to walk on. I'm trying my best really. I really am. I made the somethings you wanted possible. Some of it will come true in due time. But by the time they come true, I don't think I'll be there to see you smile. Right now, its aching so badly. I'm being pushed aside. I'm so scared for you. I can't explain to myself why I am. I'm so worried for you. I can't understand why I feel like that. This blog, its my only salvation. But it will go unnoticed. I know it has. People call it impossible because they never tried to make it possible. That's why one look and their first thoughts come out of their mouths. Impossible. But I make the impossible possible. I know I can. How I truly wished you would understand what I do, how I feel and give me an opportunity. But I know that's one thing you would rather give to the someone(s) you always think about. And just like how this place will go unnoticed, so will my thoughts, my feelings, my cries, my memories. My life right now, to me it just seems like I'm being picked on. I have to do the dirty work for the rest. Depreciated. Being ignored about the things I don't tend to usually show. Even though they are quite obvious. All I need is one chance, one kiss and one night to show you what you mean to me. One chance to spend the day with you and show you how we're so alike. One kiss to prove we're more than just friends. And one night to hold you tight. It was just something I saw online. Not original at all. I guess that opportunity will never be given to me. ... Take care. 
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