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And so...
Sunday, August 29, 2010
it kinda feels heavy, like its pulling you down with it. Trying to smile it off just doesn't seem right at all. Trying to let it flow out like tears won't work when the drops seem so shy to come out. The feeling of being disowned by people who gave you everything. No interest in anything anymore? So dear stranger, when will you find your home? When will you truly be happy and smile for that? Will you continue to drag these chains that you are bound to on this road you walk all alone. Would there be someone to join you and keep you company. If you see someone walking the same way you are, would you join them and keep that person company?
And so...
Saturday, August 28, 2010
... he said missed the old times. So dear friend, you don't get anywhere thinking like that. And he said he feels like giving up. So dear friend, you will always have someone to push you through difficult time. Someone to pick you up when you're on the ground. Someone to support you all so that you could stand strong. And so he asked, why do you do so much for others to be happy? And make them smile while you stand behind all alone? Because I don't know how to make you smile. Would there be someone who knew how to? And so....
And so...
Friday, August 27, 2010
...he said that it's right there infront of him. But he is hesitant. Hesitant to reach out and hold on to it and claim that it is his. So my dear friend, the answers you seek are out there. May you find them one day, before its too late and truly lose your heart.
What else needs to be said?
Friday, August 20, 2010
Don't.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Don't wish for anything, because you might never get it. Don't hope for something, because it might never happen. Don't ask for anything, because nobody is ever that thoughtful. Don't be so smart, because you still end up feeling stupid anyway. Don't be so stupid, because you're smart enough to carry yourself on. Don't look forward to anything, because there isn't really anything worth looking forward to. Don't be so good, because no one will be equally as good back to you. Don't be so bad, because it isn't worth the time. Don't be so weak, because you will be taken advantage of. Don't be so strong, because you will be just used. Don't think you're alone, because there is always people who think of you. Don't be happy that you have company, because they might not truly understand you. Don't be unhappy that no one understands you, because you don't know who genuinely does understands. Don't tell the truth, because sometimes the truth hurts. Don't tell lies, because sometimes you just have to trust someone with the burden. Don't trust everyone, because they might just throw you back down from where they picked you up. Don't be so lonely, because there will be always someone who can be fully trusted. Don't regret, because all you have to do is keep it strong and move along. Don't hold on to things so dearly, because not everyone cares that much. Don't drown in misery, because there is always someone trying to rescue you. Don't think so much about your past, because you won't know who is thinking of you in that moment. Don't forget where you come from, because you must always be grateful for that fact. Don't forget where is you home, because that is where you truly belong. Don't think home is your house, because home is where the heart belongs and a house is just a roof over your head. Don't think you don't have a home, because you are home but you just haven't realised it. Don't be so heartless, because you might end up hurting a very important person. Don't be so bothered, because sometimes you just have to be a little heartless to move on. Don't put an end to this post, because it would be nice if it were to carry on.
RAINY DAY TODAY
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I officially woke up a 12+, it was raining. Heavily. Should have slept in. But my friend called me. So went over to meet him. And we called down another friend. We slacked till 6 and went to eat. And soon after that we left. Its been damn long since I've met them. We had lots to talk about. And a lot more to laugh about. Its fun being with them actually, because we can just laugh and everything for all that the world cares. So reached house about 7+. Been on9 since then. And the flooding continues. 1000+ comments already. My inbox is flooded. Clearing it later. Watch despicable me just now. It was really damn hilarious. The minions are damn funny and cute. Going to watch inception soon. Well, I'm a little glad that there won't be any regret I have to hold on too. But I don think moving on is as simple as that. Time. Let time do the job. But I know, I am back to my old self. That's all that matters. I'm not recovering my my cough either. -__- Seeing someone that reminds you of yourself from a not so long ago past. The nostalgia. I can't seem to answer myself. That place. Peaceful. Where it feels right to be. Its not home. But it beats being at home.
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So I'll start of from the beginning. I woke up, did nothing much. just slacked till about 2+ then I was out already. Went to the swings. A place so peaceful to me. Then went to kovan mac. Was there till about 5.30. Went to wait for my bus, cause of a meeting I needed to attend. Was late anyway. So meeting ended about near 9. Met Jeremy, slacked with him and then back to house. Not home, house. Hahah. So that was basically what happened today. I mean yesterday. No plans for today though. Will make up one as the day goes on. So continuing, I would really wish for a new phone now. Since my current one is already in a hopeless condition. But never mind, shan't wish or hope for anything. And I don't want another stranger in my life. A proper goodbye and to know there won't be any regrets. That's what I would really like. Because I don't want to continue this. I gave up already. Met you as a stranger. Became friends. Became something more. It be really disappointing if it were to just end up as strangers. Because I can never forget this. When 2 bored people get together, you're never going to know where its going to end up. Hahaha. I now know how much more further it could have end up. Well anyways, I'm back to my old self. So I ain't gonna feel bad cause that's who i am. On the outside. Inside, that's a whole new story. Sleeping on the floor is the best. But sitting down and typing on lappy is not. My back is starting to hurt. Hahah My rooms the best. Blasting music, a still workable fan, lying down, staring at the ceiling. what else could I add. A tv, I can just watch on my lappy. A mini fridge, waste electricity. Later kena scolded only. Hahaha. Well, going to end here for now. Been long since I blogged such a long post. Should do it more often eh? We'll see how.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
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