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Thursday, February 12, 2009
didn't go out the past few days..only went out to help saifuddin move stuff..that was on sunday...alot of stuff..serious..lol..i will never forget one thing..the washing machine..haha..was the first time a carried a washing machine on my own..lol..cause i young time i saw a guy carry a new washing machine into my house..then now i abit bigger then last time mah..so i stupidly decided to carry it..lol..piece of cake..muhahaha..like i could even say that..it was heavy lor..wa..i wonder how that time that person carry by himself one..i wonder more how i carry..lol..not that i am very strong or anything...really..i so weak one..lol..[must act humble..keke..] then forgot wat time i reach home..think around 7 i guess..so it was back to sitting on THAT chair and spending the rest of the time surfing the net..[the chair the that poked my behind..and it still poking] so the past few days i've been home again..didn't go out..umm..but i am not bored though..suprisingly..been spacing out alot.. alot more ever since wat i saw and heard on friday..i guess its because of that incident where the presence of the people around me was acknowledge but not mine...i can't seem to understand why he's allowed to talk to you all and i'm being treated like a complete stranger..why's he accepted but not me..weren't i the one who used to be in his position before..but where did it all go wrong...?[*he,not trying to look down on you or anything..don take it too hard cause its not intended to to hurt your feeling..i really do hope it doesn't..]then started to space out more after reading something...alittle bit of guilt..why weren't i there.. a feeling..and its seems as though its haunting me now.. i don really feel good now..i saw something that i should never have..making me feel more of a stranger... and i'm not recovering from the flu either..alot of thing seem to bother me now..especially the fact that i'm not recovering as fast i'm suppose to.. who would you turn to when everything seems to fall apart..and you can't turn to the people you always turned to because they're the ones who are making you feel this way..what would it take for them to realise that..and you wouldn't feel right turning to anyone else to lend an ear to listen to you..just because your not comfortable with that.. well..i guess there are definitely people who would be more than willing to listen and give the support needed..but i guess wat creates the hesitancy is the approach...will they really want to listen..?? or have they too changed as well.. who do i lean on now..?? neh..i guess thats that..don wanna dwell on this too long..ain't really helping me either..another time then.. thats for the first part..now the itchy part.. yea..itchy... there has been a blood sucker in my room...sucking every night..sucking my blood that is..wat would you be thinking now eh..??blood sucker don sucker blood the suck wat..??lol.. nope..luckly no leeches..haha..i don have a swamp in my room..lol.. and so because of that i'm now back to it only after 2 days of sleep.. comparing 2 days to 4 weeks..ain't really balancing well..taking into consideration the current health status...its way off... okays..its time to go..cause my behind says so..lol..rhymes..wtf..haha.. buwaais
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