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Sunday, November 30, 2008
                              alright...prom pics...the ones i have for now.. going on course for the next 3 weeks...hope to be online when i am back in between the course...eh other then that...nothing much..need to get back to packing...and preparing uniform... till next time... He still thinks about her.Even when he there's so much to be done.Thats all he get for wishful thinking.But still,he hopes for another chance.Just one more moment.
a short holiday...hopefully it will turn out good..
Sunday, November 23, 2008
off to jb in the morning with people that i will never forget...erm..hope it will be a good getaway..thought its a short one... other then that...arm hurts from carrying a bag which i think is stupid...more worse after soccer..perspired alot though...and this time i was actually looking forward for a bath..lols.. still thinking about............. When he reached that cold place called home late at night,thats when he realised he made it through a day without even having a single thought about her.No,he is mistaken.There he goes again,thinking about her.So he was wrong.He couldn't make through even just one day without thinking of her.Maybe.Maybe tomorrow might be the day he would get a chance to see her,to talk to her,to ask her those questions,to get peace in his foolish mind.Maybe.
a saturday...a not that awesome but still wonderful saturday..
Saturday, November 22, 2008
eh..today go hq..not going to talk bout that though...anyway..we all didn't have breakfast,brunch,lunch till like 4+ i think...haha..me and my random and lame self..haha..and that will more random(not sure about lame)when tea leaf is around..lol..oh well...my eyes feels like its going to shut tightly till tmr...tired... other then that..hmm...was a wonderful weather when i was walking home from mall..decided to walk when i realised it was my kind of weather..was getting a little too tired so couldn't walk the way i would usually walk.. thinking about................................ Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had? Thats what he is saying to himself.Though he ain't really getting anywhere. He didn't see her this time,but he is still thought about her all day. As he lays there all alone,he wishes for just one more opportunity,to say what he feels for her.But he still fears that he might lose that opportunity like how he did before. Lying there by himself.All alone and only left with thoughts of her to keep him company,till the sun rises for yet another lonely day for him.
been busy..still busy..gonna be more busy i think...
Friday, November 21, 2008
okays..the open house thing finish liao...all i got to say is that its a waste of time...but it was worthwhile to some extent though..it put a smile on my face from time to time..i guess no more going back to school after today...don't really know if its good or bad...oh well.. fun while it lasts.. He sat in front of a small group.She was in there as well.But still,he carried on with what he had to do.All along his eyes drifted to where she was.Their eyes did meet,but it didn't take too long for him to realise that she was just paying attention to what he had to say.Or did he thought wrong?He just wished to know what was on her mind,was she feeling the same way as he did? Then that group left,so did she.Disappearing from his sights again.And so he left too,on his long and lonely road to that cold place he calls oh so warmly,home. All along,only thoughts of her were in his mind and he only realised her presence at first,then everybody else.In a hurry,he held her arms as he walked past her.He heard her soft giggle.Was she laughing at what had just happened?Whatever it was,it made him feel better,happier.It made him feel better about himself.Inside,he admired her laughter.He sat down in front of her this time.But her eyes never meet his this time though.She was looking somewhere else all along.But his eyes kept looking up to her,looking at her eyes.Those eyes seemed like the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.He didn't know what was so captivating about her that made him fall for her. As she took her seat not so far from him,it made him want to ask her all those question that were in his head.But he didn't.He didn't want to make her unhappy.He didn't want to spoil her mood.There were many others around.That might have been the reason why he was so scared to ask her.But did she even feel the same way as him?That made him more and more hesitant.Opportunity was there,but he never made use of it.He should have just plucked up his courage,stood up against all the fears and shame and just talked to her.So close,yet so far. Finally,those eyes met.This time there was something he could see from that look she gave.That look she gave with those eyes of hers,that seemed so beautiful to him.But sadly,it didn't last long enough for him to figure out what she was trying to say to him. It had to be called it a day.And so,she left,Disappearing from his sight yet again.With nothing else that he could do,he too left that place, where she was lingering around not so long ago. The chance was there.He could have used it.But he didn't.He was just too scared of the possible consequences.Most importantly,he didn't want to spoil another friendship.If that was what it would ever be. In there,all could he do was to admire her,those eyes,that laughter of hers,that look. Just dreaming about her,in his foolish fantasy of his.
so far...
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
after camp...went to eat at hp...then went slack at ave 8..then went home..met up with farhan for ahwhile..that was the 16...on the 17...went for a check up..realised that i am completely blind without glasses..went to collect full u after that...don really want to talk about that thought...went to eat dinner after that...dunno wat to say bout that...just fiddling around thoughtlessly..actually got thought la...same as the ones when i was at the bus stop...okays enough bout monday...tuesday...followed jeremy to update his passport..erm after that...yea..went sweat it all out...soccer till 10.30...yea..that the day i got wacked on the arm that i got a jab...hurts alot today...neck got sore too... today...went school..don really want to talk bout that..a little boring...no mood after that..so..i went on my walk walk walk..now really no mood to do anything else.. but there was a tiny moment when i felt a little bit better though...was on my walk walk walk when a tiny little puppy hugged on to my foot.. (: it didn't let go till the owner pulled it off my foot..lol... that was only a teeny weeny moment though... Walking.Looking down.Thinking that why it couldn't be like before?Coming up with stupid reasons just to feel better,though knowing its just lies.But all along,only thoughts of her and times with her.Though it was only moments ago when he last saw her,it seemed like ages ago.Then,suddenly,that coincidental moment occurred,she crossed his path.The stomach felt empty.The heart beated harder and harder,as though it was about to burst out.So close.But yet so far.He,wanted to shout out and ask.Why couldn't things be like the way they used to be like before.But all he did was wave,and do nothing else.And she replied to him by just a smile,though it was out of usual gracious self he guessed,which he was able to make out in the darkness.Feeling like the fool that he is,he continued to walk on,looking at her till she disappears around the corner.All along hoping the she might turn back to look him one last time.But she too continued to walk on till she disappears from his sight.Not even once turning back to look at that foolish person full of false hopes.His glory isn't that shiny,it isn't even the least bit bright to begin with.But why couldn't someone brighten up and shine that glory of his,he thought.And why couldn't that someone be her? And so,he continues to walk.Walk on his lonely road of his.
a bit busy..
Friday, November 14, 2008
eh....camp in awhile... got more thing coming up after that.... thats it....for now...
its over!!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
ok...Os all over...savouring the moment while it lasts..did some stuff in staffroom after Os...went hm...ate lunch at ljs...went to do the question thing at near hp there...meet up with my friend..he ask go play pool..hai...so played at hougang green there...back at home now...dizzy after wearing glasses again...eh...guess going school tmr morning... want to watch a movie leh...but go untill vivo seems like a watse of time to me...dunno how la... tired...and the feeling of regret is creeping in slowly... oh well...another day i guess...
'_' tmr last paper..
Monday, November 10, 2008
tommorrow last paper...camp on friday...gonna watch a movie before that...i think..umm...needs a little more time..later i guess...need to go find some questions to compile tmr... job??(got time??)
basically...i guess its regrets..
Thursday, November 6, 2008
okays...been long time...feels like i got lots to say.. hmm..starting off..well most of the Os are over..all thats left is science paper 1 on tuesday..umm so far how were the exams??i don really know..don think i did well either...some regrets over it now...kinda demoralising..hoping for the best...thats all can be done..hope..thats all i can do anyway..oh well..wat else to say about exams..don think i really did my best..should have used the chance when i had it..i'll just have to see wat options i will have when the time comes.. ..camp is coming soon..malaysia trip...prom night...isn't really turning me on and getting me all carefree and happy though.. okays...walking with friends isn't like what it used to be..there was laughter all the way till we reach the place we say goodbye and head for the place we call home..discussing stuff..making fun of people..ha.. just having as much fun as we can till it could last.. isn't like that anymore...that laughter that used to be there isn't the same as before...the presence feels different...its like walking alone or walking the same path as stranger...even though they are still there..close by..literally..just a silent walk.. can't it be like it used to be..?? and could there be anything else more worse then losing a friendship that is cherished deeply...??it feel as though another one has been lost...that expression that is shown on every coincidental occasion...its best to look away and pretend.........and just cheat yourself for those few seconds.......but the thought always remains inside...never once that it disappears..bothering every second of that miserable life we say we live in... and i now wonder what happened to speak your mind... and forgiving and forgetting... and just walking beside and being a friend... oh well....statring at orion's belt now..(: haha..cause its the only constellation i know of.. tomorrow...
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